I think we all reach a point where we wonder what could have been if things were different.
If I was a different person, what would my life be like?
Would I still be scared of the silly little things? Would I have had the confidence to pursue my dreams and goals. Would I be skinny or blonde or rich. So many what if's, but there is only one that I ask myself now.
What if I change the way my life is?
I put off doing so many things because I am scared or worried or embarrassed and very self-conscious. I am at a age now where I find that my life is going through a downward spiral and I feel powerless to stop it. More so I don't know how to stop it.
It feels like my dreams are out of my reach. but I am the only one who is pulling myself away from them. Even if I get close to them I start to run scared, afraid to even peek around the corner at the sunshine and embrace the warmth.
I don't want to be like this anymore. I don't want to runaway and hid anymore, lock myself away and say that tomorrow will be a better day, that starting Monday things will change, because it won't. Saying it is meaningless, they are just empty words of a girl to scared to experience the world, to embrace life.
I don't know where to start. Do I dip my feet into the pool or dive in head first?
I am only sure of one thing. That my life needs to start.
If I was a different person, what would my life be like?
Would I still be scared of the silly little things? Would I have had the confidence to pursue my dreams and goals. Would I be skinny or blonde or rich. So many what if's, but there is only one that I ask myself now.
What if I change the way my life is?
I put off doing so many things because I am scared or worried or embarrassed and very self-conscious. I am at a age now where I find that my life is going through a downward spiral and I feel powerless to stop it. More so I don't know how to stop it.
It feels like my dreams are out of my reach. but I am the only one who is pulling myself away from them. Even if I get close to them I start to run scared, afraid to even peek around the corner at the sunshine and embrace the warmth.
I don't want to be like this anymore. I don't want to runaway and hid anymore, lock myself away and say that tomorrow will be a better day, that starting Monday things will change, because it won't. Saying it is meaningless, they are just empty words of a girl to scared to experience the world, to embrace life.
I don't know where to start. Do I dip my feet into the pool or dive in head first?
I am only sure of one thing. That my life needs to start.
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