Start doing something for yourself

It feel very easy to get swept along by the current of the new internet world. The simplicity of turning a hobby into a functioning career, whether it is uploading a video on youtube, photographing a breathtaking picture or even posting on a blog. When you are young you see this as your ticket into a better life, the life you want. You see friendships being made and communities being built. You see a world of opportunity all at the click of a computer mouse. It is exciting to believe that you could live like some of these people.

The disappointment come in swiftly and brutally and leaves you feeling incredibly empty inside. 

When it feels like you have poured your heart and soul into something only to feel rejected when no-one is interested. No-one has read that post. No-one has view that video. Not one commented, not one has like. Nothing. Let me tell you it is the worse feeling in the world. 

However we grow and as we do we begin to reflect on our past errors. I didn't know what I was doing, I didn't think it though. I didn't advertise my blog or make people aware of it existence, how is anyone going to read it if they don't know about it.

It is then that you find yourself asking the question.

Why am I doing this?

When I started Blogging I wasn't writing for me, I was writing what I thought would make my blog popular and in the end it broke me. I deleted everything that I had written, closed down the account and retreated back into a dark corner. 

About 3 months ago I decide to try again, but this time on my terms. I need a change. My day-to-day activities were quickly becoming  monotonous and it was making me feel sad and depressed. I worked hard at making everyone around me feel happy and loved, but I was feeling quite shut out. I decided enough was enough. I am only going to get one chance at this life, so I better start living it.

That was when I starting writing my online journal. It was for me. My live, my thoughts. A place where I could write all the greatest moments of my day or upload those pictures from my last trip, and if no-one see's, I don't mind anymore.

This is still new to me, my blog is my baby and it will take time to nurture it and watch it grow. I want to look back in 10 years time, read this post and smile at all the things I have achieved doing thing my way.